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REMODELING MY HEART

 

"As long as you have Jesus in your heart, monsters can't get near you." I told my 3-year old daughter as I reassuringly sat by her bedside last night.  We are in the final stages of a major remodeling project and as a result, Tamlyn moved into her own bedroom for the first time.  Prior to this, she shared a bedroom with her older sister, but now she has her own room, complete with a toy kitchenette, a play table, lots of stuffed animals, and imaginary monsters at night.

"Jesus loves you and will protect you." I went on to explain. "No monster can get in this room without Jesus knowing it. You just need to pray and Jesus will listen."

"Can Jesus hear me?"

"Jesus can always hear you." I replied. "Jesus even knows what you are thinking, but He loves it when you pray to Him because He likes to talk with you just as I like to talk with you and be with you."

"Here I was telling my daughter to trust in Jesus, yet I
myself have not."

As I continued to cuddle and console my teary-eyed daughter, I suddenly realized that the Holy Spirit was actually talking to me. Lately, I've been going to bed with several "monsters" in my room too. These monsters scare me as much as Tamlyn's monsters scare her. The only difference is what the monsters are.

Over the past several months, I've constantly been worried about my family, my health, the remodeling project, and several other issues. These monsters have invaded my life because I haven't asked or trusted Jesus to kick them out and I haven't let the Holy Spirit take full control. Instead, I've been consumed with worry and fear of what the future may bring. What a hypocryte daddy turned out to be! Here I was telling my daughter to trust in Jesus, yet I myself have not.

Near the beginning of our remodeling project, the construction crew had to tear off our roof and demolish several of the walls. In the midst of the teardown, they discovered a mummified squirrel that obviously got trapped inside the walls several years ago. Even though I was living in this house for over a decade, I never even knew it was there. Likewise, it causes me to cringe when I think of what mummified remains I may be harboring in my heart because I haven't let God fully tear down the walls and clean things out. And as long as these monsters remain, they will never let me have the peace God so desperately wants for me.

The Psalmist's prayer says it best:

"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me." (Psalm 51:10 KJV).

I am now reminded that just as the remodeling project continues in my house, I need to let God continue to remodel my heart and transform it into place that worthy of His presence; a place devoid of monsters and full of the Holy Spirit.